Today, I think I truly realized just how much society has actually ruined me. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve known for quite some time that the world is screwed up (to say the least), but it really hit me today.
I was hanging out with a couple of friends who are like my brothers. Since I was only going to be around them, I didn’t bother with putting on my makeup. Bad desicion. Or was it? I mean, why should I feel uncomfortable without makeup? Why should I be ashamed of my face? Come on! It’s MY FACE for crying out loud!
Anyway… When their dad came to pick them up, I began my walk home from the park (a whopping 1 block, by the way). They didn’t pull away for a few minutes (probably their dad was checking his phone or something), and so I was walking with my back turned to them. I began to feel sort of, well, awkward. Did my hair look okay? Should I have worn makeup? Did my shirt make me look fat?
As soon as I couldn’t see their faces and reactions to my appearance, I started to question whether my friends judged me by my personality, or if their views of me relied solely on how I looked. As these critical thoughts ran through my head, I stopped myself and thought, “Where did this come from?!” I’ve never really judged myself too harshly (is that the right way to say that??) about my appearance. Sure, I could stand to lose a bit of weight, and maybe I like myself better with makeup, but I try not to think about it too much. So what was this?! Why was I being so hard on myself?
Society has taught me that I need to be skinny. Have I failed? Society has taught me that I need to be flawless. Flaws? I have plenty of those to spare. Society has taught me that I need to live up to impossible standards. Will I ever look half as attractive as a Victoria’s Secret model? STOP! Ladies, and even guys, too; Everyone is different and unique. I don’t care how cheesy that sounds.
That girl at work tries not to laugh because when she does, she snorts a little… But you think it’s cute. That guy you saw at the bus station was secretly embarrassed of his acne… But you think he looks really nice. Think of your flaws. Now, as depressing as that may be, realize that the people who pass you on the street every day DON’T CARE ABOUT YOUR FLAWS. Your friends and family love you despite your flaws. No one should have to look in the mirror and not love what they see. Love yourself UNCONDITIONALLY!!!